Help!!

Hey, guys!

Today's post is really difficult to write because it's about something really scary that has happened to me - is happening to me right now. When I first started this blog, I promised myself to be as honest as I could here, but back then I had no idea that Teenager Destination would take off the way it has. I still cannot believe that now I have officially 905 page views with approximately 853 followers! Thanks so much! Although the thought of sharing it with you guys is terrifying, I think it might make me feel better, so here it goes...

Several years ago, I met with an accident. It's OK! It's not any car accident or whatever. It happened in my house. But it was still one of the worst experiences ever - of my life.

My mom and I were playing in our bedroom. My mom was attempting to run out of our room when I somehow slipped and fell on the floor. Most people who fall would fall on their bum, knees, elbows and so on. But I did not fall on any of these areas.

I fell on my chin.

And my chin literally split apart.

I know it sounds gross, but that's the truth.

And my blood was all around the floor.

My mom heard a loud sound and immediately rushed in. I was crying and she took a lot of tissue paper to let me hold it on my chin to try and stop the bleeding.

I kept crying and crying non-stop, because it was really painful. My mom said that she could almost see my bone.

Obviously I needed to go to a doctor to stop the bleeding immediately or else I would have loss a huge amount of blood. We had to take a bus there and everyone was looking at us. Possibly judging us?

When we reached the clinic, the nurse saw my condition and allowed us to go first before the patients as my condition was of course more serious than just flu, cough or fever. The doctor could not do much but the least he could do was help me stop the bleeding. He helped us call the ambulance and we went to the hospital.

After we reached the hospital, the doctor did further things (which I completely don't know because they gave me something to drink that will put me in a short coma) After I woke up, I had some bandage on my chin and it was pretty painful. My mom notified my dad and we had to wait for a while for other further X-Rays and "surgery".

When my turn came, a nurse gave me an injection which will numb my chin, ONLY, because it's not good to keep putting yourself in a coma or something bad may happen... The nurse apparently escorted me to a kids area and told my mom something, which I don't know at all. The kids area is a place where some nurses would read story books or play with you. A nurse played with me and I was completely distracted and did not even know what the other nurse told my mom.

When it was time to do my surgery, (I still did not know what was happening) we went to the surgery room which I didn't know it was a surgery room. I was told to lie on the "bed" and don't move. My dad arrived too, btw. And so the doctor put a cloth on my eyes so I can't see anything.

I was told not to talk during the process and I could feel needles around my chin area. Actually, the doctor was stitching my chin together again. Because it was very gross to see your own chin being stitched.

What am I trying to say?

Basically I've been having these weird panicky moments if I happen to see someone fall down or accidentally touch my chin... If something stresses me out and I feel like I can't breathe. It has happened three times now - and I am really scared that it is going to happen continuously. And I don't know what to do.

I hope you don't mind me writing about this. I promise I will get back to my usual self next week. I will try to blog more often when I have the chance! But if any of you have been through anything like I've just described, and you have any tips on how to make it stop, pleeeeese post them in the comments below. It's bad enough being the CLUMSIEST PERSON in the whole world. I don't want to be the PANICKIEST PERSON TOO!!

Thank You! :)

Teenager Destination , going offline xxx